what is my mission? what are my missions? do I have any knowledge whatsoever of anything at all? hide a clue. if you have 72 clues, hide them. some are lost, some are found, have fun. serve the USA. serve all of humanity. inalienable rights. the rights do not come from the Constitution. the rights do not come from the Declaration of Independence. the rights are inalienable, cannot be sparated from the person, from the body, from the soul, from the mind, from the Spirit, of the individual human being, given by God, if you so wish to believe, but even if you do not believe in God’s existence, the rights are inalienable. among these rights is the right not to be tortured.
I bought a faulty object from the bookstore (I’ve had enough good experiences from this particular bookstore chain that I would prefer not to name it) but then I walked over to the Fargo Target, where I noted, over 4 or so hours, a father tormenting his own son as a control freak would. “YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED LAST TIME!” was it that the boy wanted root beer but the Father wanted him to drink diet sprite or something? finally after trying to hook up this crappy device for 4 or 5 hours to something resembling an internet hook up network, I left and shouted, “I WILL NEVER SHOP AT TARGET EVER AGAIN!” it was at this point that I took the crappy object and threw it on the ground and kept walking.
It was my purpose to try to make it over to the grocery store, where I have a relative who works for the same chain of grocery stores. however, more and more cops showed up, asked questions (as if they cared what the answers were) and later I realized they were Target Fargo rentacops dressed as Fargo police. of course they guided me onto the parking lot, when they all fell on me and injected me once again with evil chemicals to get me once again tortured in a torture palace (psychiatric hospital.)
the only purpose of the torture palaces (psychiatric hospitals) IS torture. I don’t remember it, but I understand I put up quite a fight. just before all the smack thugs closed in on me at the Target Fargo parking lot, I was screaming “RAPE!!!!!!!!” of course the basis of psychiatry is rape, and nothing other than rape, because control freaks want absolute control. to struggle is to be raped with a needle.
thus the origin of psychiatry is infinite hatred. it is this infinite hatred that will bring about the extinction of the human race, if it is not exposed and moderated by concepts such as individual choice. let’s say, for example, that individuals have the right to take or not to take a particular type of drug. or no drugs whatsoever. billions of dollars are at stake. perhaps trillions of dollars. eli lilly. Bristol myers squibb. “the slavers are coming. the slavers are coming. their names are eli lilly, Bristol myers and squibb. they hate our freedom and they hate the madness lib.”
thus psychiatry always hates freedom of the individual. if they respected the freedom of the individual, they would respect the right to take or not to take evil pills.
ultimately these are the very pills that fuck up the pineal gland, fuck up connection to the Power outside of the Cosmos, and fuck up testicles and the ability to come to an orgasm. only the white race hates itself enough to try to castrate its own holy men, in more ways than one.
there is a war that will happen. in some ways it is already happening. anyone who loves psychiatry is my enemy. psychiatry is an insane realm where you are treated like a 7 year old and money is taken from you until you are traded to various owners like a player card, because……..
join the CIA in your own way.
help the Mossad in your own way.
marry a German. have an affair? it has been done.
I have no fear. I have no worries. What, me worry?
what is the story of o?
what are the images of the story of o?
X. UNDER THE BIG BLACK SUN.
protect the mints
we have entered the 7200th dimension
there are only 7200 dimensions
the equivalent of infinite dimensions
or is there an infinite number of dimensions, or 7300?
I do know I am 41
I am 22 years old
do I drink beer?
I give myself permission to do so
can I study the 12 steps?
I give myself permission to do so
can I or will I one day drive all the way to Detroit Lakes by myself in my own car that has no debt on it
carefully making sure I have a full tank of gas and enough credit cards etc.
to be able to buy gas when needed?
I give myself permission to do so
I already like a private investigator
like a public dick
(I am a public dick)
(I am a private dick but
when a private dick finds something out he must by law share it with the real authorities)
I like to call people a bit like Fletch
and Fletch Returns
and Fletch Returns One More Time
and Fletch makes a fool of himself and having sold out, gives an unending hellish panorama of hellish las vegas clichés
I don’t look down on relatives though
if they like to talk about las vegas all the time, it is time to fit in
I will only stay at the two queens
for the rest of my authorized and King James Authorized Version of my life.
getting back to the librarian in Detroit Lakes, she said the library could be found easily
she used the phrase “kitty corner.”
is there a “kitty corner” in Detroit Lakes?
is there such a thing as a “sex party” where the people just have sex in front of each other and don’t give a damn?
of course the wool was carefully pulled over my eyes in 1000 different ways by good and evil men
some people are convinced anti-sex is good
some people are labeled thought criminals
today I was told I could go thus far and no farther
to go no further past a certain hallway
and that if a certain phone rang, I was not permitted to answer it
although I can indeed answer the other 3 phones on the other side.
every day the rules change
Sheila let a fart so long ago, a little girl in about first grade
but I can still see the satisfaction
the look of satisfaction on her face
as she punishes those around her
as an ugly stupid somewhat retarded girl
but at least she can make our teacher and me smell this disgusting smell
what is the smell?
what is the stench?
is it blacks over whites?
is it women over men?
is it the permanent creation of a police state?
is it America as the world dictator?
what about the black prisons in Bulgaria where awful music is played at 50 or 100 decibels? for 8 weeks at a time? it is hard for those people to sleep
has America declared itself the god of this world?
because in church I learned that the god of this world is the devil or aligned somehow with the devil.
if we close off the borders at Mexico and Canada,
perhaps one day all the white men will be dead
perhaps one day all will go back to living in tribes
like the primitive American Indians.
is it true that white people are by nature more beautiful, powerful, good and true than, let’s say, black people?
what about the white girl I saw who had been tortured by a black pimp in Minneapolis?
I saw the torture in her eyes and she looked aside and smiled as if she knew one day the black pimp would be brought to justice, cosmic Justice, Ma’at.
I would be just as angry if anyone of any race tortured anyone of any other race and placed them into an involuntary situation such as sexual enslavement against their will.
having said that, there is straight people. there is that category. there is gay people. there is that category. then there are kinky people.
and this world may not exist for too much longer.
I wonder how much hospitality this world actually has.
if this world has no hospitality for the white race
perhaps amen ra will simply decide to destroy civilization.
“Kublai heard from afar ancestral voices prophesying war.”
listen to the soundtrack to judge dredd
judge jury and executioner
put me in a cell 150 levels below ground
and because of the lack of hospitality to a good man
I wouldn’t be surprised if America is someday so hated around the world
that not one brick is left of any buildings in America.
part of the problem is “the will to power.”
Viktor Frankl, the survivor of a concentration camp, invented a means of addressing the challenges of finding meaning in life by inventing a set of tools for “psychotherapy” by the general name of “logotherapy” or “meaning centered therapy.”
is it true that the Germans want to take control of a planet? Even the Japanese in the alternate universe (or is it the true universe) cannot stop them? in one Philip K. Dick book there is a character that likens them to insects, like preying mantises because of what they did to the Jews. In one concentration camp, according to a “friend” it was true that they forced the Jews to eat their own excrement and drink urine until the Jews died. (the same as my experience (essentially) in some hospital wards which do not deserve to exist. I hope someday that particular so called “hospital” is simply demolished and crushed, brick by brick, and the employees never employable again.) in another concentration camp, Jews were simply put into a vacuum. There was no air in it, just like in outer space (essentially). Were the German Nazis wondering if blood would first come out of the Jews’ eyes? or ears? or mouth? or nose?
Those who are anti-psychiatry have to be engaged in a dance. Just today I was told that this and this was a privilege but that and that was now the new law. Supposedly this was “for my own benefit.”
To be introduced to a family unit like a psychiatric ward both is and is not a family unit. There are rules.
Is it now the rule that contact information can never be shared? That email addresses can never be given? That if I am a journalist with a web site, I can never share the web site address with other people in a place where I am? Moorhead, Minnesota. Home of the pseudo-control-freaks. Fargo has some odd things happening.
Something happened within the last 6 to 12 months.
God Bless Them.
I don’t give a fuck.
I do serve the United States of America.
When in a game, there are rules.
There are areas not to go beyond.
There are meta-rules, by which rules can be set.
Is it KGB vs. CIA?
Is it Christianity vs. the Roman Empire?
Is it Christ Jesus against the world, which is dominated by the so called Prince of the World, the devil, or the devil’s top man?
Just say “The Lord Jesus Christ”
and already the Holy Spirit has entered your heart.
Get yourself a Bible.
I am a Gnostic Christian
In my heart of hearts I am a Christian Scientist
97 dollars a year for the Christian Science Journal
I finally gave myself permission to say the word “cunt”
in a store called “pink”
there is something called “hooking”
there was a girl who produced “out of nowhere”
a woman’s underwear
with the words “yes please” over the cunt
so I asked for it, and I got it.
I said the words were over where the “cunt” was.
She thought I may have insulted her or it took her aback
Soon I apologized and she said “it’s all right.”
That was a turning point of my entire life.
But when looking at what is on hogtied.com
there comes a point when a woman says “fuck”
and that is the point at which she finally realizes she cannot lie, cheat, steal, use devilish inventions like credit cards, to cut off the dicks of men, she cannot rationalize, or imagine the destruction of the entire male race, imagine controlling a man with a remote control like a TV set. when a woman in that situation says “fuck” that means she finally starts to smile. She will be back for more. She understands, then, finally, the superiority of the male race and the fact that women are made by God to be the “helpmeets” of men.
Study the Gorean lifestyle.
and the postures of submission.
It is the woman’s nature to submit.
there is an insanity among women, especially true with Andrea Dworkin’s “philosophy” that says that all sex is rape. thus among thought criminals, the thought crime itself is that sexuality is OK. the man with an active dick and a man who can reach orgasm must be punished by sadomasochistic, ugly, and stupid women until they realize that they must submit to a much more powerful set of forces and give respect where respect is due, for the sake of their own honour as women, or at the very least, understand the risk and danger of disrespect to a law of Zeus, the law of hospitality to a guest, and how a royal should be treated. am i a royal? am i a commoner? if i am a royal, treat me as a royal. if i am a commoner, i have a friend in Jesus. if i have “delusions” who gives a fuck? only the idiots do. and when the revolution comes, the idiots are the ones who will least
a dominant man needs……. what? a submissive woman who is fertile and young and able to bear many children, and who supports her Lord (her husband)December 3rd, 2013
i would die for my country, the U.S.A. i was just about tortured to death 3 days ago in a torture hospitalDecember 3rd, 2013
am i second alpha or the runt of the litter? does the mr. t sell cereal? “i pity the Fool ” or is he just a fool (smalll l?”) i do benefit from studying salesmanship and zig zig lar (all i wanna do is just a zig a zig ah) why is baby spice always wrinkling her nose when she talks about the n.?November 27th, 2013
1) do one thing at a time.
do it as well as you can.
do the right thing.
do it because it is right.
and do it right.
(learn all you can about kenneth and gloria copeland’s ministries in fort worth, texas. i have benefitted greatly from learning from them about the importance of reading the Bible.)
do the most important thing.
get enough nutrition, good food, enjoyable food.
speak the truth.
get enough rest.
get enough sleep.
if you can, set your work hours so that you can sleep late and get a few things done in the morning.
collect paper books before everything becomes electronic. (i truly hope everything does NOT become electronic.
use the post office to send letters to relatives and loved ones before everything becomes electronic. (i truly hope everything does NOT become electronic.)
use cash instead of credit cards before everything becomes credit cards. (i truly hope everything does NOT become credit cards or cell phones because what if the Emperor someday is anti-Christian as in the days of 110 A.D. and Christians are not allowed to enter shopping centers or grocery stores, and Christians have to go out in the country to live, and then are hunted down?)
obviously, i am a Christian. to the extent that i am in the corporate world, i am also corporate. i am CORPORATE. i am proud to be CORPORATE. however, RESPECT is due to one’s SUPERIOR OFFICERS. DUTY IS JOB ONE.
I AM AS PATRIOTIC AS MY FATHER. IF I COULD BE ONE TENTH THE MAN MY FATHER WAS, I WOULD BE HAPPY.
I AM AS CHRISTIAN AS MY MOTHER WAS. IF I COULD BE ONE TENTH THE CHRISTIAN AND ARTIST MY MOTHER WAS, I WOULD BE HAPPY WITH MY CHRISTIANITY AND MY ARTWORK.
note: there is absolutely nothing wrong with a hobby. one of my hobbies, as such, is something i love. i love it with an undying love. i love to do artwork. i love to do art. i love to watercolor paint sometimes. i love to draw with pencil on paper. sometimes i like to use black ink on white paper.
note: this is a side note, yet it is an ABSOLUTELY IMPORTANT part of anyone’s life. IF YOU ARE A MAN OF YOUR WORD, YOU WILL PAY OFF ALL OF YOUR JUSTLY ACQUIRED DEBTS. PAYING OFF ALL OF MY JUSTLY ACQUIRED DEBTS IS JOB ONE IN MY LIFE. IT IS OF THE HIGHEST PRIORITY. I DON’T WANT TO BE A WANNABE LOWLIFE AND A WANNABE LOSER. I WANT TO BE A MAN OF INTEGRITY, A MAN OF VALUES. I WANT TO BE A MAN WHOSE WORD IS GOOD. GOD IS EVEN HAPPIER WITH THE MAN WHO PAYS OFF DEBTS THAN HE IS WITH THE MAN WHO GIVES TO CHARITY. READ THE RICHEST MAN IN BABYLON, A GREAT FINANCIAL PLANNING BOOK. READ THE WORK OF DAVE RAMSEY, THE TOTAL MONEY MAKEOVER. CHRISTIAN FINANCIAL PLANNING IS A KEY TO GREAT UNDERSTANDING OF HOW TO GAIN GOD’S FAVOR AND HOW TO PUT A MESS RIGHT AND HOW TO GET RIGHT WITH THE MAN UPSTAIRS. (YOU’VE GOT TO GET RIGHT WITH THE MAN UPSTAIRS, GOD.)
i’m moving away from watching TV
not spending as much time watching TV
i would rather be on the internet or read a book, listen to music, listen to the radio
i no longer spend one penny on cable TV
no longer get cable TV
would not be willing to spend even one penny on cable TV if i could get it for that cheap
having said that, i do kind of miss the movies that would come on unexpectedly
yes i saw some good movies
so yes maybe if it were 5 bucks a month i might take cable TV
i don’t mean to say that all TV is evil or satanic. far from it. a lot of it is simply a waste of time
so please don’t misunderstand my recent posts
i think i’ve seen enough humor of the type of conan o brian or jimmy fallon
or jimmy kimmel
i’ve just moved on
God bless them though
and i do get some stations for free over the air
so…. good morning america sometimes has a certain magick
a kind of optimism
a kind of energy
i will miss a show that was on in the morning
in the heat of the night
sometimes it touched on racial strife and old money stories
it was well thought out, yet it was a small town in the south,
so it touched on a lot of different types of people, with law enforcement at the center
to play a game
to engage in interactivity with the internet
two identities, in psychiatry, oppose each other
the patient, and the psychiatrist.
to play a game is, in and of itself, aberrant, devious, deviant
yet it is sexuality itself
it is that which promotes intelligence and created humanity
to be on the internet
if you share your thoughts and feelings
to go before a psychiatrist
to open your mouth
going after a goal, a purpose,
the psychiatrist will see through it
and will then label you as this or that
and force drugs on you
better to be a taoist
lay down on bed every so often
enjoy doing nothing
interactivity by definition is playing a game
if you are playing a game, the psychiatrist will see it, if you are in a facility
so, be interactive on the internet
tell the truth
but then be a taoist.
take a break from the internet.
don’t go on the internet for a while. an hour, or a day, or a few days.
think about what is truly important in life.
think of the phrase, “motion and rest.”
what do we fear?
the TV set exists for some people, anyway,
in order to do “hook operation” on the soul of the fool
(or a potential fool)
and so the hook operation continues infinitely
through insults and hatred
the TV exists to try to find out what you fear
if you are an official enemy or a potential revolutionary
and then to create that scenario
do you fear being laughed at?
do you fear that one day you will discover that indeed you are a gay man?
do you fear that you will become gay and then never be able to come back to loving women sexually?
do you fear being insulted and laughed at, at the same time?
do you fear that one day you will go to prison?
do you fear you will attract the attention of the police, that you will be interrogated by the police?
do you fear you will always be alone?
do you fear you will be “the effeminate heterosexual?”
do you fear that even if you have a son, your son will call you gay?
do you fear you will never know who you are as a person?
do you fear?
the TV set exists through infinite hook operation in order to maximize fears, hatred, and to shape your view of who you are as a person through propaganda and hatred.
thus it is that on TV being gay is permanent, while in reality there are men who have lived a gay lifestyle, have repented, have embraced God, and have gone on to get married to a woman and be a father and a husband.
for whatever reason, the identity of being gay and the reality of the TV set are completely at one. the so called identity of being gay, which is supposedly permanent, is one of the categories that is promoted by the satanic TV set.
the liberals who are in favor of equal rights for gay people, some of their comedians will then joke that michelle bachman’s husband is gay. when in fact he is a courageous man who talks to people trapped by the gay lifestyle, who want to learn to love women. the fact that he promotes the truth is the very reason he is hated so much by the anti-christians.
it is a form of satanic logic that goes like this: some people are gay. some people are straight. you can’t help what you are. it goes back to the day you were born. it goes back to when you were conceived. some men for example go from being straight, to being bisexual, to then being gay. i don’t hate people. i don’t hate anyone like that. but i do think they are succumbing to a form of satanic logic that is all too common on the TV set.
another form of satanic logic is the idea that gay men have certain characteristics, and if you have those characteristics, then through “gay dar” you must be gay. “gay dar” is like radar, supposedly, and people can tell if someone supposedly is gay. interestingly, if you are polite, often that too is said to be a sign of being gay. so, to be a Christian, to be honorable and respectful, to be chaste, is sometimes seen as evidence of being gay. which of course is nonsense.
if you have a friend who openly and directly tells you that he does not believe in God, that he does not believe in marriage, that he does not believe a spirit or a soul exists, then avoid him. he is not your friend. if you are a Christian. a Christian and an atheist cannot be unequally yoked even in friendship. you can witness to him. you can tell him about Jesus. but that’s about all you can do.
so it is not unusual for someone like elton john to say, for example, that the world would be better off without Christianity, without religion of any kind. it it not unusual for someone like elton john, a gay man, to say that Jesus himself was gay.
so you have a choice. do you follow Jesus Christ? or do you follow the world?
so what is the real form of logic? just this: follow Jesus.
once the Soviets broke down
once communism was no longer an enemy
then we had to determine who the new enemy is
for a few year in silence of the lambs it was the serial killers
people who by definition are insane and evil
then it came upon the TV set, the realization
that cop shows would be all about yelling at, and hating criminals
so the TV set exists to increase the total amount of hatred
we absorb this hatred
and then we internalize the investigation and interrogation
so there is something in each of us
that is potentially a criminal
and thus we are all suspects
the cops on TV hate all of us
and this endless interrogation, this endless investigation
in order for the cops to hate the criminals
they must first believe that the criminals are worthy of hatred
thus the two levels of society:
those who are heroes
and those who are worthy of hatred
likewise, the ordinary people pay their bills
but the homeless are those who are pushed into homelessness
now that there are no communists
we are divided in this way, down to our very souls:
those who are victims of the advertising, that happiness comes from spending money unnecessarily
those who are pushed into homelessness
for those who believe that politics is still possible,
that this society can be changed for the better,
it is not unusual for such people to be labelled “criminal”
i happen to believe in a society that has no homelessness, where everyone gets what they need
but i don’t like the idea of increasing taxes to get to that point
i would rather work on the hearts of each person, to be more generous with the poor.
the thing is, even if there is insult comedy on the TV set, and you get the impression that the whole world is laughing at you,
you can still derive self respect from a smile on your face, giving money for food, talking to the person, smiling,
saying thank you
“i am no better than anyone else
but i am also no worse than anyone else
now that Jesus has saved my soul
and wiped away all my sins, cleansed me
– i do have something of value to give the world.”
cleanliness is next to godliness.
so, in other words, before you go to the grocery store,
take a shower. shave. have a smile on your face. drive as well as you can.
go about your business. “the rich and the poor meet in the marketplace. the Lord is the maker of them both.”
when you get home, read the Bible. memorize the Proverbs.
to the extent that you gave your word that you would give X amount of money per week to your church
give that money
even if you have to send it in an letter to the church.
read the Bible.
TV is for those who want to see themselves as losers.
cleanliness is next to godliness.
wash your dishes, 100 percent, every day
repent for your sins
repent of your sins
be contrite. you know just how sinful you were.
we are a step above the animals because we can choose good over evil
or if we do sin, we can repent and come to Jesus to be saved.
one of my memories of years ago
was watching an SNL show, saturday night live,
in which everyone was laughing at, and insulting, superman.
even his so called girlfriend, Lois Lane, was also laughing at superman and insulting him.
what was the point?
what is the point of remembering this?
insult comedy puts hooks far into the self
of course the TV set is evil
of course NBC at that time and saturday night live were evil
of course they were serving the devil, darkness
of course they were serving insult comedy
what is insult comedy?
we laugh at those who care about others
we laugh at the homeless
instead of trying to solve the problems
yet it showed that SNL, saturday night live, was an absolute waste of time
not only that, but the viewer felt a deep deep self hatred
in having spent 10 minutes in that universe
the universe of the insult comedy
we don’t need the TV set
we don’t need insult comedy
right now i only get what is over the air
i no longer get cable TV
and even the over the air stuff, i usually only get PBS channels
of course there are the gays and lesbians who have their own talk shows
do i know what i’m talking about?
God bless them
but i don’t need to spend 25 dollars on cable TV if i could instead give 25 dollars to charity
nietzsche would say, the superman
is the one who can affirm and say yes to
the endless numbers of shows of cops on TV
and now the cops hate the criminals
and now the investigation and interrogation of criminals is endless
to be replicated in the mind of a person
an endless investigation
an endless interrogation
only a fool would get cable TV
best to be more of a taoist
best to give money to charity, not to the cable TV company
yes there was infinite hatred
in the laughter at superman
in the putting down of superman, in the insults, the insult comedy
to the extent that superman represents Jesus
then the rejection of superman is the rejection of the Messiah
and of course you get lost in infinite space
when you turn on the TV set
so don’t get lost
read the Bible.
be ready to change the channel when you do turn on the TV set
make eye contact with people at the grocery store
make eye contact with people as you pass them on the street
you don’t need the infinite hatred of the TV set
when it is dark outside, it is time to go to bed
and when it is light outside, it is time to get up and do what you need to do
no need to turn on the TV set close to midnight on a saturday night
likewise, all of the insult comedy hells are going to be open when the sun goes down
and it is dark outside
you don’t need to invite yourself to go to hell
you don’t need the pornography
you don’t need insult comedy
a movie at least has a beginning, a middle, and an end
you don’t need the endless TV shows in which nothing ever really happens
a movie is at least a story
let it tell that story
insult comedy is the hatred of a fool for his own mother
insult comedy is the hatred in the heart of a fool, that broke the heart of his mother
we are breaking the heart of Mother Earth
we are breaking the heart of Mother Nature
white people invent things like the TV set to spread hatred
would american indians invent something like the TV set?
and so the hatred comes from new york city
i have seen so called “comedy” from new york city
which basically says we can do nothing for the homeless
and that becomes part of the comedy routine
thus insult comedy is based on the idea that we can do nothing for the homeless
insult comedy comes from new york city
the man who wants to save the world is the Messiah
and of course once you follow the devil, then
you make fun of the Savior
that’s why everyone was making fun of superman
and why everyone was insulting him
saturday night live
really it is not the show itself
it is the time itself. it was people staying up too late watching TV
on a saturday night
when it is dark outside, go to bed.
when it is light outside, get up.
it is not always the case. but it is often the case that what is on TV is not what God would want
if you watch TV in the night.
“when you think the night has seen your mind
then inside you’re twisted and unkind
let me go to show that you are blind
i see you
i’ll be your mirror, reflect what you are, when you don’t know.”
only a fool or a foolish family permits the TV to be on near midnight on a saturday night
thus, the reward of the fool is to be laughed at
that is all that is. i have memories. it is a mirror. it is evil.
the main character of another so called comedy sketch
is the effeminate heterosexual.
in other words, he is called a faggot by his own son
thus, it is the desire of the satanic TV set to “break” a fool
to the extent that a fool is a fool, he will be broken
to the extent that he gains wisdom, he will pick up the Bible and read, and be saved by Jesus.
you don’t need the TV set, the cable TV, the endless insult comedy shows.
now i will talk a little about david eddings’ series of books, the belgariad, and orson scott card’s ender’s game.
the main character, garion, finds out that it is his destiny to kill the evil god Torak. of course this represents Soviet Communism.
so he gets the right sword, and the Orb of Aldur, in the sword, and he fulfills his destiny. he kills the evil god Torak. Communism in Russia falls. likewise, in Ender’s Game, Ender himself defeats the evil empire that is against “us” which means Soviet Communism falls, China becomes just like America in terms of being capitalistic, etc.
the Fool is the Main Character, is the Hero. “Max the Hero, paint a zero on his head. here he comes now, stick to your guns, and let him through.” sonic youth, daydream nation album. this is the Hero. this is the Fool. this is the Main Character. this is Reagan having enough courage to say to Gorbachev, at the Berlin Wall, “Mr. Gorbachev, tear down this wall.” God bless the soul of Reagan.
likewise it is John Paul II, pope. it is Margaret Thatcher. it is freedom. it is the Berlin Wall coming down. it is the destruction of Communism in Russia. it is the Eastern bloc countries forming alliances with Western Europe and the U.S.
i believe Russia as it is today is actually stronger than the Soviet Union was. why? because the Soviet Union’s power relied on fear. there was one organization. it was the Communist Party. in America there were multiple organizations. that’s why America was stronger than the Soviet Union. in America organizations could be born, live, change, and die. or some of them still survive across the years, changing when they need to, to survive. in the Soviet Union there was only one organization, the Communists, and they were the god that failed.
having said all of that, is the dialectic dead? what about democracy? what about participation? now we must engage the 99 percent of people who are not rich. not just do good things for the one percent of the wealthiest. the dialectic is not dead. politics is not dead. now we have the desire, or we should have the desire, to equalize. to get the wealthy to give away their money. to teach youngsters about the value of giving to the less fortunate. to teach youngsters about the problems that arise when people hoard their own money and don’t share what they have with the less fortunate.
we will be making the perfect city. the dialectic leads to the perfect city, so says hegel’s philosophy.
the dialectic is between spirit, on the one hand, and matter on the other. spirit says, be saved by Jesus. matter says, feed the hungry, clothe the naked, take care of people, give a place to live to the homeless. spirit says, if Jesus make you free, you shall be free indeed. free from addictions. free from self-destructive behavior. matter says, love each other, take care of each other, provide food and lodging even to those who cannot afford it.
what else about belgariad?
it talks a lot about magick. do i believe in magick? i used to study magick. now magick comes to me. but i do not desire it all that much. it might be in the song lyrics. it might be in a coincidence. it might be in poetry. it might be in a work of art. a movie.
i do not study magick anymore. now that i want to be saved by Jesus, Jesus comes into my heart, and saves me. then i don’t need “my junk and my jewels.” “struggling like a fool with my junk and my jewels. you would have thought i’d had enough.” –the church, heyday album.
so, there may be a time in a person’s life when they have a craving to learn about magick. but the time comes when Jesus enters the picture, and all of that other stuff becomes unimportant. still, when there are coincidences, it may be God’s way of saying, pay attention. there might be something for you to do.
i would not now read the belgariad. it talks about multiple gods and goddesses. it talks about magick. the Fool, the Hero, went ahead and now soviet communism is dead.
but does that mean that communal possessions, the idea, is dead? does that mean that the dialectic is dead? the early Christians held their property in common.
does the triumph of capitalism mean that everything in the world has a price? does it mean that as a species we have sold our souls to the devil, and that everything is for sale? i want to believe that some things are not for sale. nature in its wild form should be preserved. we should preserve what we can of Mother Nature.
Mother Earth is being driven crazy, and that’s why we have these extreme weather events, these super storms, these hurricanes.
i am glad that africa is no longer the battleground between proxy war people, some on the side of America, some on the side of the Soviets. i am glad Africa is becoming wealthier.
and of course Africa is getting wealthier because of capitalism. i am glad of that.
but is the meaning of life simply to make the earth into a shopping center, to kill Mother Nature? are we engaged in matricide?
thus, the dialectic keeps going on. i am not content if a group of billionaires live somewhere and people are starving elsewhere. and i will speak my mind. i will not shut up. i will speak in favor of a transformation of the heart, through Jesus Christ. i think Jesus would want us to share with the less fortunate.
the following writing is based on J. R. R. Tolkien’s the Lord of the Rings:
in some sense Frodo, his friends, Gandalf the wizard, Aragorn son of Arathorn, the rightful King, and Gollum are all related to the same being, the same reality.
it is Gandalf who sets the mission up. Frodo must go East and destroy the One Ring.
it is Gollum who is the loathsome creature, a being that lives only for the One Ring, to try and get it back.
Gollum represents the one who desires pleasure above all else, but does not desire to get married and start a family.
Gollum represents the single man who uses tools (such as any kind of pornography) to increase pleasure. Gollum is a single man who for example, eats raw fish. this is the symbol of a single man, all alone, who eats exactly what he wants to eat, and how he eats is entirely up to him. he is a single man who does not desire to get married and have children and do his duty for society.
thus the man who is addicted to pornography is Gollum. likewise, the man who is addicted to anything, alcohol, buying things on the internet, collecting things, if his main effort is not to woo a woman and raise children, then he is Gollum.
the internet is a tool raised to an infinite power. thus, the addict of pornography only has to go one step in the direction of pornography, and it will all be there, free and infinite. thus, to overcome one’s addictions requires the help of Jesus.
the One Ring represents, for example, using a credit card to buy something “instantly” and have it delivered to your door.
the One Ring is using tools to get what you want. the internet, as a tool raised to the infinite power, thus becomes the One Ring, which simply represents power itself, and power in order to get pleasure, or to increase your goods, or to possess.
we are using the One Ring, capitalism, as a society, while at the same time we are destroying Mother Nature. thus, the One Ring is using pornography, or advertising, to enter a mall, to make the world into a mall, to destroy forests, pollute lakes, rivers, oceans, water, air, soil. we are not thinking long term. we are thinking very very short term, and this too is the One Ring.
Aragorn son of Arathorn has a fractured sword that must be reforged by the High Elves, and then he must at the same time desire to fulfill his destiny, his fate, his being King. this means that the single man who desires to get married must desire as well to be a father and a husband, a good father, and a good husband, in order to be a King of a fruitful land. to do otherwise is to merely be Strider, a ranger, a man who lives all by himself out in the wilderness. Aragorn must be King, based on his heredity, because ultimately he is a son of Kings, but also he must choose his destiny as well, to be King. here too is where free will meets destiny in the present moment. but without the courage and overcoming of fear that is present in Frodo, in going East in order to destroy the One Ring, there would be no fruitful marriage between King and Queen. so Frodo’s courage, even in the face of what seems like overwhelming odds, is the centerpiece of the books.
when the evil is vanquished and the King comes back, then the King is married to the Queen, the wedding ring having replaced the One Ring as a source now of goodness, not evil. this is the infinite desire for pleasure and power, but now in the eyes of God it is sanctified by marriage itself, and by the efforts needed to raise children well.
be careful of those who use a lot of profanity and references to casual sex. they are engaged in a kind of ungodly sado-masochism and wish to draw you into it. it is a kind of lifestyle without fearing God. if they feared God, and kept his commandments, obviously they would not be using a lot of profanity and referring to casual sex. this too is the One Ring, it is the world showing forth its filthy “jewel” which is to be rejected, the “jewel” of lust and lust satisfied, outside of the will of God.
the fact that the One Ring is destroyed by also killing Gollum means that the zero self respect Gollum himself must be destroyed in the very act of the King marrying the Queen and with the new wedding rings that represent a sacred vow, sacred to God as well.
the fact that the One Ring is destroyed in the fires of Mount Doom means that doom represents fate. it is destiny. it is fate. yet it must also be chosen. Frodo must do what he must do. he must choose to do so. in that sense there is free will, to the extent that you must choose to do what you are destined to do. you must choose to do that which is your duty. here is where free will meets destiny. here is where free will meets karma. the King was destined to marry the Queen. Frodo is destined to destroy the One Ring.
i advocate taking time for internet. but if you take an hour for internet, however, take a half hour or so for “doing nothing” which is a form of meditation. lie on a bed in a mostly dark room. contemplate Mother Nature being destroyed. is it worth it to listen to worldly music, music that has profanity in it, pornography, advertising, things to take your mind off of the pollution, the cutting down of forests, the radioactive waste, the poisons? all people with a conscience should read Joanna Macy’s books and start getting active in trying to preserve what is left of Mother Nature, Mother Earth.
when you think of the pollution, the poisoning of the world, the genetically modified seeds, the butterflies dying because of the genetically modified food, the bees dying out, the radioactive waste, the clear cutting, then it is clear: madmen are in charge of the world. there are those with billions of dollars living alongside those who are starving to death. meanwhile we are supposed to be “shopping.” when a terrorist attack occurs, we are told to go “shopping.” i am as much against terrorism as anyone else. i am fully against it. having said that, i also believe in preserving what is left of Mother Nature. Mother Earth. the One Ring represents a kind of foolishness. and capitalism is built upon taking money from fools. to some extent. so simplify. meditate. contemplate helping Mother Nature. “do nothing.” simplify. purify.
we should have a society based on sharing. not so much based on “getting all this stuff for myself.” a society based on sharing. a society based on potlatch. the rituals of sharing one’s goods. even the American Indians, centuries ago, understood the need to have a society based on sharing. when the white people came over, we came with an insane philosophy, a philosophy that is now destroying Mother Nature. we need to moderate. we need to understand the Temperance card of the tarot deck. one thing we need to do is to learn from our American Indian brothers and sisters. Temperance means to go between two extremes. to moderate. to take the middle path. don’t be doing things all the time. take some time to “do nothing” or meditate.
rather than say that capitalism must be destroyed, that the One Ring must be destroyed, i would advocate the middle path. eat what you need to. shop when you need to, to get the clothing you need. but don’t think all the time about eating or shopping or buying new clothing. study Jesus. especially study the words of Jesus. give to charity when you can. simplify. purify. meditate, or “do nothing” for a half hour, or 45 minutes, here and there. don’t be travelling all the time. study the tao te ching. (one of the wisest books i have ever read.) don’t define yourself by your shopping. do what you can to advocate for keeping some places in the world wild and free of capitalism’s destructive powers.
to the extent that the One Ring represents capitalism itself, tools like the internet itself, then i argue that it doesn’t need to be destroyed. we are making one world through the internet. the internet is the seed of the next step in human evolution. but to the extent that the One Ring represents evil or addiction, then all natural methods are preferable to using a tool or electricity. for example, sex i would argue is all good. it’s all good. it’s what is necessary to create the new generation. but sex plus pornography is evil, i would argue. pornography is the use of electricity to create a tool, to create separation between two people, the use of money, as in prostitution, or in paying the people involved in pornography, is also evil. better to be a taoist. “kill the headlights and put it in neutral.” turn off the lights, do nothing, meditate, and eventually the truth will come to you.
the internet can fuel addictions. so be mindful. God is ever present. to use credit cards too much is a form of slavery, a form of gambling. the addiction is related to the idea that “i can do whatever i want forever and no one will stop me.” of course behind this is a secret guilt. that’s why the 12 steps talks about acknowledging that there is a Power greater than oneself. and also that all the secret guilts be confessed to another human being.